so please catch my diseaaaaase :D

*ehem hem*

because of my last post i have been accused of several things by many of my so called friends *glares* and i have decided that the time has come for me to defend myself. and perhaps explain why i'm being unfairly accused of being hateful, spiteful, sadistic and bitchy.

first of all, i dont HATE him. hate is such a strong word! in fact, i don't hate anything *cough* except perhaps anything that has an exoskeleton. actually come to think of it, i hate things that don't fit under the category of 'mammal'. my feelings for that particular ex can't be considered HATE. it's more like violent dislike :D

secondly, i'm not mean or bitchy okay! i reserve those words for when i'm having PMS and every snotty nosed kid on those damned roller shoes that happens to have the misfortune to cross my path ends up sprawled on the pavement calling for their mommy. when i'm commenting on something thats factual like 'omg he's such an ah beng' or 'holy shit, look at those tree trunks she calls legs', i am being HONEST. *rummages around for angel faced emoticon*

thirdly, i'm not sadistic!! i believe in karma (somewhat). i think what goes around, comes around and i'm very amazingly glad that it happened in his case. those people who know the amazingly lengthy story of what happened between us would agree with me on that point. i like bad things happening to bad people, it's really not a crime. i'm sure all of you have wished for an anvil of some sorts to drop on the head of a tutor that's pissed you off at some time or other. this is what i call perfectly normal human emotions.

last of all, i'm not spiteful. or actually. i might be. just a little bit. so i have no defense for that. it's not one of my more endearing traits but not everyone is perfect so everyone will just have to allow for me to be spiteful sometimes. i promise i wont be if i like you or am on friendly terms with you :D

a lot of the other things random people on MSN (who i didnt know read my blog) said was that i was being entirely judgemental bla bla bla. okay so i admit i can be judgemental.

my my, this is turning into a character bashing session isnt it.

anyway, back to judgemental. WHO DOESNT JUDGE LAR. everyone does it. when you see a person on the train that happens to be dressed from head to toe in prada, you think: RICH BRAT. THATS judging too. and when you read my post, and said i was being judgemental, THATS JUDGING TOO ISNT IT? i just happen to be extremely good - or to put it more modestly - relatively accurate at judging people from the first time i meet them. which is why people often take me for stand offish and extremely rude from first meetings because i'm quiet and i dont say much.

i have to admit that sometimes i have been wrong about people but its only because i have been fed wrong/biased information about that person from someone else so if ur an enemy of a very close friend, there's seriously very little chance i will want to get to know you or even give you the chance to get to know me even though you may be a perfectly nice person.

in further defense of my last post, i believe, i called it creative vindictiveness. (right jason?)

yes, i can be all of those things above (including other things like vindictive, socially awkward, extremely stuck up) but that post was seriously just meant for that one person although i doubt he'd ever read it so we'll just leave it at that.

okay. it's 1AM and i'm done explaining myself now.